Just treading water, one day after another

>>531150804
It's the same old song and dance. Another late night where I'm so fucking sick of being real that I struggle to focus on anything. I want more than anything to be pulled through the screen and become Andrew or Thiu or Araragi or Kyouske or anybody fucking else. I'm so worn out by this constant barrage of reality and it's uncertainty and difficulty. I just want to disappear completely into fiction

All I want is what Andrew and Ashley have. God, /calg/, I'm so fucking lonely. I often don't even realize how lonely my default way of living is. I so deeply crave physical intimacy. I need to hold someone close and feel the warmth of their body against mine. I need to kiss someone's lips and feel their breath tickle my face. I need to hold someone's hands and feel their grip squeeze me. I need someone to lay on top of me so I can feel their weight pressing me into my bed. I need someone to talk to me while I'm driving. I need someone to greet me when I get home from work. I need someone who I can hold in my arms. I need somebody to love. This stupid fucking game has cut through all the barriers I put up to romanticize my solitude and all that's left is my pathetic solitary disgusting visage staring back at me in the mirror. I can't even enjoy jerking off anymore because when I do I think about how lovely it must be to be so passionate with someone and I want to break down in tears.
How much better it all wouldn't been if I never downloaded this game.

>>528994772
>Literally was my excuse to get through every month
Coffin is genuinely the only thing I have to look forwards too in life. Not in the sense that my life is shit, just that I've been treading water for ages. My job is boring and repetitive with no chance for change, I'm a hikikomori with no social life, I play the same games over and over. Coffin is the only thing I have in the future that actually gets me excited. Everything else is just the same day on repeat. No matter what, I could always hang my hat on the first of the month. It was something to look forwards too. Now, I just have to hope we get a random Nemlei injection once every whenever.

Another long night of wasting away

>>528371929
I can't even extort her for sex because we don't get along well enough. This is such a disaster

>>527973216
But I want a cute imouto that's obsessed with me while I still get to be an otaku hikkiNEET