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She's the only girl in my life (apart from my late mother) who has been nothing but sweet & unconditionally loving towards me. All of the ex gfs I had were too wild for someone like me. I genuinely don't know if I have what it takes to hurt her and break her like that and then lose her forever. It makes it more complex because of these feelings.
If I just leave her, will I ever even meet a girl that's like her again? Simple statistics would probably imply I wouldn't, and I'll just be sitting on a lounge chair in my 30's/40's getting drunk or stoned every night wondering where it all went so wrong and what I could've done to change it.
That's what makes it the ultimate dilemma. It's all so scary anons. Too many choices in our world. I noticed a lot of people I graduated with in 2018 already have 2-3 children families themselves. They did it young and got over the initial hump, maybe I really should've done that in 2021 or 2022 but I didn't feel ready then and I still don't feel ready.