>>76758356
If you can't get big off biannual cycles and need to flush your endocrine system down the toilet year round on test and tren then you're really, really not cut out for this.
You're a little league player thinking you're in the big leagues. Golden era athletes didn't even use testosterone or have pct protocols, and yet here you are on your year round dosing protocols without anything comparable to show for it. You are not cut out for this, now be a good boy with your average genetics and cycle like a normal human being whose self-esteem isn't inextricably linked to his muscle size.
You do not just want bigger muscles, which would easily be achieved by cycling. You are not a competitive body builder, which would justify BNC protocols. The only reasonable explabation for your irrational and self-harming habitual behaviour is that you are suffering from autoandrophilia. You are sexually aroused by the idea of being more of a man than a man, this is common in BNC steroid users.