>>81825445
Luv a dog w glasses on.Its like.........Thats enuff carry on. Stop horsing around.

>>81805319
She really took care of me during that night out.I cant fault anything.I wouldve been completely fucked if she hadnt sat nxt to me for dinner. It helped my nerves a lot. Am not good at saying thank u properly.So i use birthday gift to do it.Plus her new bf was a nice guy.I cant even lie I wake up that day wanting to dislike him in advance nd I dont like meeting new ppl but he really surprised me n disarmed me. So hopefully hell do a good bday gift for her too.

>>81753676
Same mayte. Dnt remind me. My grnny had 7 weans nd a number arr gone already. My mmy is an exception. And theh didn't get to old age either tne ones that's passed away. Well my granny's husband my grndd died in his 50s in thr 1st place, before i was born. So maybe it's that but my granny herself lived until 87. But that's probably the record fkr the oldest on both sides in my family in that generation. It was a bit exceptional. Whereas u hear about ppl with relatives in their 90s, they just have them like its normal. I dont know rly. I guess anything can happen. Whereas on my dads side everybody is still around AFAIK. But thats not helpful to me. I guess it might benefit my.own life span but id rather that ppl on my mmys side had longer ones I dont really care how long I live if I dont have anybody I can trust in the world then jt would actually be a punishment to stay too long.

Now consider this though.What about the opposite of clock maxxing.What if we got rid of clocks n stopped measuring time.

>>81661460
I like the croissants in costa.I quit coffeein 2023.Am scared that if you have 1 after quitting its like nicotine where youd want another next day.But probably something from costa/starbux would be fine since its like a treat instead of from the kettle.Well a frap would be bliss though.
>>81661536
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fccXHLXczIY

>>81659691
Something ave learned recently is that nicotine doesnt relax you.I know i know i know.But listen it doesnt........i learend this from my audiobook.Thats how ave quit nicotine.Logical thinking.Saving so much money already.
>>81659701
xx

>>81615269
I guess I am in a way but it depends how u define it,I mean being pre-everything and not transitioning,bt having the sickness of gender dysphoria that makes ppl want to transition,but choosing not to do so.On a desert island once u establish the two genders i think it would still be there,when i became aware theres two,I jst knew i was the other one,before having the vocabulary or concepts i jst knew neway if a soul has a gender then it would be there either way i think.Like meeting women when i was wee nd imagining what her day is like not for sex kinks just thinking how nice it would be to walk around n exist as her.Nd its way too TMI but when i was learning to touch my little pp in my room i was thinking from a girls pov.Had elaborate fantasies in my imagination from that pov when i was like 6 or smth.Rubbing my little peepee against my bed.I still mostly m*sturbate from imagination now.Wishing i had a "flower".Like when lassies in skewl talked about having a flower am thinking,i wish i was part of this, as one of you.Nd jst imagine walking around skewl in tights with my hair did.On n on.Oh its sick.Idk why.It was jst always there.Am not sure why.Its a mental illness I guess.But its weird how early it starts.

>>81609851
ITs not me but ave considered doing same not with deception involved or money just for free/sexual gratification but am entitled now to say am not a transgender now maybenot fully cis but who is? had gender dysphoria for about first 25 yrs of my life i overcame it over a period of abusing drugs for about 10 yrs,,until I was numbed out to stop caring I guess when i was born i had two options between tranny and drug addict but ave been getting mixed up lately bc this year alone am aff the diazepam,,am aff the booze,am recently aff-ish the nicotine,am in the process of getting aff opiates,that will be that.....I was on benzos for 10 yrs.Evry day.ITs a major change.Yea if we lived in the 2000s world it would be diff but living in the end of days i cant be concerned with nething tht doesnt save my soul n what kinda life THE BIG MAN has in mind.Well I regret drinking or doing drugs but it kept me going i was for sure gna KMS until i found that way to mellow out for a wee while.Ofc i would rather be born different but i wasnt so thats the end of it.I feel like God must honestly hate me nd ave done something terrible in a past life.ITs crazy that both my sisters were born female n statisticaly speaking from my mammys 3 kids it was more likely to be born female but there was 1 space left for a moid n somehow that juts had to be me.........Of course it had to be me.They didnt have to do anything,,to be born as a girl it was just handed to them....They dont even care.Nd theyve always been popular with guys.I was so jealous.ITs ok now but i had issues before.Its funny bc theyre jealous in reverse because of am closer to my mam bc theyre so independent they think am the favourite n say stuff like that not knowing the miserable path am on for things to be this way.Am less independent so i bonded more w mum.Thats all.IT is what it is.My life is definition of."It is what it is".Ammoving on from it but the chemicals have done a number on me.I jst think WWJD unironically.

I would like to learn to record things properly so i can record my musics better instead of just using my phone like a mong but to be honest i dont have any particular reason to do so,,but it would be a nice project for me neway.Back on Audacity grind.1 little thing at a time though.My focus at the moment in life is jst geting aff the nonsense.

Dont know where that spiders went.Shall make believe that i never saw it.

ASMR girl dog