>>82294691
I am imagining, thinking about, and seeing a bunch of different things. I imagine titanic beasts walking through the landscape at night. I imagine what it would feel like to hold someone who loves me while I fall asleep. I have been thinking about the tens of little self contradictions people in my life show. It seems everyone I personally know, including myself, lies to themselves about so many different things. I have thought about the speed and thrill I might feel if I were speeding in a sports car at night. I have thought about who I truly am, and wether or not I could honestly be someone worth being sought after in a romantic sense. I have imagined leading a revolution against the entire world, to reset it all and to begin a new. I imagine what it would be like to be popular, to be praised by hundreds and thousands of people for being who I am. I scheme ways of becoming that mythical version of myself. I wonder whether I'd be better off alone. I wonder when my life will feel worth it. I wonder if someone really could love me. I imagine a guardian angel watching me.