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>I completely lost interest in my lifelong escapes as I got closer to her. She ditched me recently because I'm retarded and have a shit personality.
Not your fault. Live for the next moment you might spend with a woman who'll actually deeply care about you. Whether you find her tomorrow or 5 years from now; Don't kys over someone who doesn't care. Live in spite of it, and with hope.
You already got farther than most anons here, a lot of us have never even been in a relationship. Don't kill yourself while you're ahead, faggot.