/adv/ - Advice

I've been firmly in the child-free camp since I was young, but was also just never that interested in dating, only ending up in relationships due to circumstance where someone else I vibe with pursues me and I a few times ended up agreeing to give it a try.
A few years ago though I met a guy, we clicked, and now that we've been together for a few years and live together and our relationship still feels more perfect than I realized was possible, I've noticed my brain playing tricks on me.
Now I've always had a breeding fetish, but I always assumed that was because I'm a trans guy and was never that into the idea of sex in the first place, so the breeding fetish was a way for my brain to make sense of libido or something in some weird way.
So my boyfriend and I have never really talked about if we'd want kids, because we both assumed it wouldn't happen and didn't have a problem with that.

But now my dumb biology is occasionally hijacking my brain to tell me
>ok but what if
and the idea of getting actually pregnant is increasingly able to get me horny, when in the past I would only get horny from doijinshi and stuff where the whole thing is fiction.
Will I have to put up with my brain doing this to me for the next decade? I'm only 30, so there's still time to go.
Maybe if I went back on T it might help, but I already pass, and I'm uninsured right now and living in a new place, so getting back on T might be expensive and a pain.

Should I mention these thoughts to my bf? I don't want to give him the wrong idea, but since I don't even know what I think myself it's hard to decide what the right idea to give him even is.

I'm struggling in all aspects of building and maintaining relationships/friendships because I'm too scared to get to know people.
I also developed terrible coping mechanisms so that makes me feel like a freak even more.

I'm like stuck in the middle where I'm too autistic for most normal people but too normal to get along with autists.

After researching, I'm pretty sure it all stems from my childhood and lack of support growing up, but now that I'm in my 30s how tf do I fix it?

>A lot of men that not interest me hits on me. I could use them for free meals/dinners but im above that, so i just declina their date offers
>The few men that i actually like either never contact me, or i know they just want to smash and bump me

Should i just accept that i will never find love where i desire? Or maybe my standards are just too high?
Maybe settling down with someone that at least love me deeply, even if i just cant reciprocate at the same level?

I hate my Job and want to quit. I work 12 hour shifts, the work alternates between extremely stressful and nothing happening, and I have really bad hip and knee pain because I'm on my feet al day and I have flat feet. I'm in pain all day and I'm sick of it. What do?

I’m a woman in my 24. I previously had 3 relationships and my last one abused me really bad. The other 2 were soft and well behaved and caring but missed the ‘excitement’ in a relationship. My last one dragged me by my hair, gave me nose bleeding, treated me like shit, was toxic as hell, abusive, violent, made me cry the most, blamed me for everything, raped me etc.

But somehow i loved and missed him more than my other 2 exes. How is that even possible? Do i have mental illenss issues?

Second verse; same as the first.

>meet two girls at a bar
>they obviously know each other, probably friends or old roommates or something
>one is married, the other doesn't mention anything about a boyfriend/husband, so i assume she's single
>they both give me their phone numbers
>married one tells me to text her when i get home (apparently this is a thing girls do)
>text her when i get home, tell her maybe we can hang out again some time
>a couple days pass
>text the (presumably) single one and ask her out
>she never replies
Is it okay to text the married girl, just to hang out?

general, sure-fire ways of improving one’s life?

My sister in law is a lesbian, and she jokes about stealing my husband's girlfriends throughout highschool whenever we are left alone with each other.

I don't like her much, but I try to be nice since she's family. Lately she's been doing things that seem like she's just being friendly, but with the added context of her being a lesbian and a history of her trying to seduce people my husband dated I think she's trying to flirt with me.

I want to shut this down, but I want to avoid going too hard on the off chance she is just being friendly (and to avoid family dinners being more uncomfortable). How should I handle the situation?

Me and my gf got together a few months ago, we're both seniors in college and it's my first relationship.

We finally started getting intimate about six weeks ago and at first I was super thrilled to finally lose my virginity, but I quickly realized that I had a little bit of a problem in that I can't really control when I cum. I asked a couple friends of mine if it was normal to only last a few seconds, and they told me not to worry, that I was probably just nervous (which I was) and this happens to every guy their first time.

But it's been several weeks now and it still hasn't gotten any better. I've searched the web looking for strategies to hold it in, but so far their tips haven't worked for me at all. I think my diet and exercise regimen are pretty healthy, so is my sleep schedule. None of the recommended mental or physical techniques seem to help, condoms don't slow me down either and they also introduce their own host of issues too.

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I am in a pendulum right now, just like Tolstoy, more than 150 years ago, I have found myself in what is supposed to be a very comfortable existence with a loving family and a job; and just like him this has provoked in me a feeling of horror to my own death; the nothingness; and why stay alive and not just kill myself. God has helped but every time I get closer to filling that void with God and feeling once again alive, I return to my more Atheistic tendencies, to trying to reason with the unknowledgeable that is non-existence.

My question in this thread is then if any of you have ever been in this sort of journey that Tolstoy and I took? I have so many unknowns especially around theology (the contradiction within and the fact that he was Orthodox and Im a Catholic) or how to remain Christian even when I start to get better and not feel like a farse I cannot mantain?

How do I stop being a weirdo? I want to be a normie

You ever worked with people that act like they own the business but they're just a low paid wagie like you and me?

How do you handle those types of people?

This year my father's first cousin suddenly passed away. This really shook me up and because of that I started going to therapy, where I also got diagnosed for OCD. Now I am better than I was initially since the passing, but I am still feeling really anxious about stuff, specifically for my father's well being since he has a somewhat similar problem with drinking as did the cousin in question had, but on a smaller scale. However all this worry got exponentially raised because during the initial period in question, while I was in a panic mode, I made probably the stupidest decision in my life. And that was to enroll in major that I don't really want to study, in a university i dislike. My initial thought process was that I should get a higher education so I could get a well paid job and with it I can lift some of the financial burden of the shoulders of my parents and eventually, hopefully, it would have meant that my father would have started to take his own health and bad habits more seriously, maybe even go to rehab if truly necessary. But all that has pretty much fell apart by now. And that's because right after the moment I enrolled i noticed that my second cousin, the niece of the of my father's first cousin, attended this university before died. Also before that, during her first semester there, her dad also died. Aside from her, there's this one other cousin, not related to them, that had his bachelor's degree from there and his father has also died. I don't know if it's because of the OCD or I may have some other mental disorder but I started to make the association that if I go to said university something may happen to my dad. So I am unsure how to proceed forward from now on.

I decided to try and fix my N64 because it was turning on with a red light, white flash, but after that, no audio or video, at all. So I opened it up, noticed some legs on a chip were without solder, so like a dummy I decided to try and reflow some black/solderless legs on one of the chips for my FIRST attempt at "real" soldering, ever. And now multiple bridges are connected, and IDK if I've burnt it or not. I have solder wick, flux paste, tip tinner, and a sponge but dunno what to do. Should I try even more? If Its unsalvagable I'll just send it to a repair shop but can't right now. Do I dare? Help :(

My girlfriend is a strict vegan so we are a vegan household. Recently, we got a dog (the most adorable little schnoodle you ever saw!) and we want to stick to our vegan morals.

The problem is, most dog foods are non-vegan. Most other advice for dog food is also non-vegan.

Does anyone else keep vegan pets? What are some vegan-friendly dog treats? We were thinking carrots but they are a little firm. Perhaps boiled?

If only she found you attractive instead of repulsive.

Not sure if there's any way to go about this organically.

There's this acquaintance of mine from my childhood. He was a jackass then and he's a jackass now. He thinks he's better than everyone and always the star of the show. He's a completely average looking guy, like the most generic NPC looking guy you can think of, wouldn't stand out from a crowd in any way. He posts a lot of photos on his Instagram of him playing video games, playing soccer, fishing, hunting, etc. Even one photo where his face was all bloody but he was happy as he held up the trophy from soccer.

And then women in the comment section go like:

Woman 1: Oh my God he's so hot.

Woman 2: Girl what are you talking about he's so plain!

Woman 1: He's not plain he's hot!

Womans 2: He's not hot he's plain!

And back and forth for several comments till he steps in...

Him: Ladies, ladies...can't we all agree that I'm both hot AND plain?

Woman 1: Oh my God! He's so humble!

Woman 2: Oh my God! He's so humble.

And those are real women and not his alt accounts by the way. They have hundreds of photos and thousands of followers.

And like...how the FUCK do you get women to fight over you like that? I go to the gym, my job pays $100,000 a month, I live in a big house, I paint, etc, and yet this shit NEVER happens to me no matter how hard I try.

I had my first kiss when I was 30. I am 31 now and haven't been on another date. I feel almost scared to even try again. It wasn't traumatizing, the woman kissed me first which made me feel good. However, I knew I was doomed as soon as she did it because I consider myself close to retarded when it comes to social interaction. Unfortunately, things didn't work out between us and I think its because I started distancing myself from her. I stopped texting her as much etc. I definitely liked her but a part of me didn't want to advance things because I didn't want to get involved and then ultimately lose her somehow. Not even sure how I really explain that.

Basically, I don't like relationships even though I want to be in one. But I don't like them because I know the likelihood that it ends is very high because of my ineptitude. So I don't want one because I know I am going to fuck it up. Is there anything I can do to get over this? I almost wish she hadn't kissed me because now I know what kissing is like and before I had no idea. Now it may never happen again and yet I know what its like. I hate that feeling. The feeling of knowing but never being able to have again.

I will say though that I think overall I am glad it happened. It made me wonder if maybe I am not as bad as I thought. I use to think I was completely unworthy of even having friendships etc.

my last couple gfs were zoomers but we met under circumstances where it was less of a cold approach and we just started hanging out and banging

this girl seems receptive but she's shy and we've barely talked

probably just going to straight up ask if she will go out on a date

This shithole is constantly wearing me down. Even if I manage to avoid /pol/, I keep seeing the most horrid demoralization propaganda. It tires me. And what's worse, it works. I don't want to get a gf anymore, because all I see is how every woman is a heartless whore. I don't want to live in this Judeo-Satanic world.
The solution, obviously, is to quit 4chan.
But I can't. Doing so will leave a void in my existence. I would have no more avenues for socialization. I would be... all alone. I've been here for most of my life. Without 4chan... what am I?

I just turned 36 and am more blackpilled than ever. I got a bit of a late start in education. Homeschooled to start, dropped out of high school, couldn't handle college. I probably needed a tutor, but my parents couldn't see nor could they afford one if they noticed. After years of floundering "what do i do what do i do" I finally made a decision at the late age of 25 my "path". It was 1) get into the trades 2) become a mechanic 3) save and start my own business. Here I am 11 years later with nothing to show for it. There's no opportunity for me to get ahead. "Working class" is a joke. The trades are a fucking joke. I show up every day on time, i don't fuck around, I do what I'm told. my peers like and admire me. got "promoted" to an office role. i looked at my new career trajectory and realized none of this is worth it. i quit. i work part time as at lowes now, stocking shelves after hundreds of applications went no where.

and now that i'm 36, I am really thinking about giving up entirely. the carrot is ALWAYS is front of the horse. I have never been late on rent since I started paying it at 17. Never, not once. That's 19 years of on time rent payments, and you know what? I guess I'm gonna continue being a forever renter because being in poverty and just getting by seems like a better alternative after a decade plus of literal physical labor doesn't advance my life or pay off in any way, like "owning" a home. I was approved for a mortgage and the total wasn't even half of the average home price. I'm fucking over it guys. I thought this was supposed to be the boomer pathway to success? grind hard, put in the hours, and it will pay off. it's been a decade. where's the payoff?

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There's a really cute blonde zoomette working at a drive thru that I go to frequently. I'm 34 years old and I've been running into her working every Saturday evening. She doesn't seem like she's really into me though. How do I raise her interest and manage to make her pussy wet? I really really want to fuck her!

first of all, happy halloween to those that had a good time yesterday, but, as you may have guessed, i ain't on 4chan to show how good of a day yesterday was

once again, i was left out. my friends, or wahtever, dunno what to call them anymore, threw a party and i wasn't invited, like always. i'm frustrated, so much, like, why? why do they do this to me? i've never hurt them yet they do these things, pretending like i don't exist, except when they need me, of course. i'm lost, what shoudl i do at this point. believe me, i have tried to leave them, like they have done with me, but i can't. everytime i delete my socials, everytime i distance myself from them i come back like a miserable dog that needs to eat or, in this case, interact. i'm tired of this, i haven't hurt myself in months, and now i feel the urge to again. i wish i had the will and virtue to stand my ground and stop this, but i can't. i've gone through this since i have memories, with my mom and dad insulting me and all that, don't wanna go too deep into it. i'm losing hope, will i ever find a happy relationship, where i can be a good person, a good friend, and have a good person, a good friend by my side?. i feel empty, like a vessel that's waiting for yet another personality to flourish and utilize it. fuck this, i am no one with all this different mes within, i've lost my own image and reflection, despite trying to avoid it. now all i can do is live with this, for as long as i can, i guess.

if you have a good friendship or relationship in general, treasure them and show them you care, take care of them and, most of all, be greateful

>Work a retail job where I get disrespected by black people constantly
>Went to car dealer to ask for help buying my first car, got treated like shirt for no discernible reason instead
>Asked out 3 different women, rejected by all of them
>Tried taking the train home, got harassed by some drunk nigger for the crime of being right next to him
>Cant understand shit in 2 of my classes
> Spent my birthday and Halloween alone while everyone else is having the time of their lives

Came out of homelessness after running away from home in 2023. I genuinely feel so hopeless. Even if I make it I have a feeling I’m still gonna be treated like shit anywhere I go. I have no friends or family to vent my loneliness too. I just wish life would give me one win, ONE fucking win for once.

Anyone have any words of encouragement to help get me through this?

I used to roll my eyes when people said physical symptoms were just stress but now I'm starting to wonder. I recently turned 26 and keep waking up at night disoriented, with pressure in my head, nausea, adrenaline and fear. I can’t find any physical reason.... I'm generally healthy, though I’ve been really depressed and having suicidal thoughts for many years. I spend a lot of time crying and seething sitting in the dark pretty much.

I have felt this way for years, but only now am I getting these intense physical reactions. Sometimes I even have to call my long-distance boyfriend at 4 a.m. like a baby to calm down, which I hate because I’m usually very private. Or take half a Xanax to stop myself from the physical discomfort. I take Xanax very rarely so I know this isn't caused by pills, it's for emergencies.

Can mental stress really cause this? Why didn't it happen when I was younger?

> Be me (cripple)
> have a gf of 5 years
> gets treated like shit constantly
> accused of rape
> knew I was raped as a child
> time passes
> lose apartment
> thrown to the street to rot
> she goes on vacation
> comes back
> ivechangedsomuch.png
> loses second apartment
> living in car
> finds out she has cp of me
> Beat her to next sunday

Am I in the wrong /adv/? She is the only woman I have ever assaulted and I was told that there is never a reason to beat a woman. Also before anyone asks why I stay it is because I cannot support myself on my own.

You will never get married.

You will never have sex without paying for it.

You will die alone.

You will never go on a date.

You will always be seen as creepy.

You will never father children.

You have disappointed your parents.

You are damaged by your loneliness beyond repair.

Your life is not a movie, there will be no sudden plot twists.

You will never make breakfast for two.

Women can sense you are damaged.

No one will be there for you, you won't be there for anyone.

Regrets and thoughts of missed chances will always be there with you.

You are this generation's boogeyman.

You are getting older and you are beginning to notice it.

It's too late to turn things around.

Your distractions will not fulfill you.

There is no place for you in a society that values achievement above all.

A girl will never smile at you.

Blind anger is as pathetic as despair.

You are the genetic scum that gets washed out with every generation.

Natural selection will not have mercy on you.

Your remaining friends are starting lives of their own.

You are being sold false hope.

It's too late to achieve the milestones you missed.

You will never get your youth back.

No one is coming to save you.

No one cares.

There is no way out.

It will not get better.

It's over.

It never began.

You know how when you're walking somewhere and someone is approaching in the other direction, and when they see you, they immediately turn their head literally... LITERALLY... 90 degrees to the side in order to avoid making eye contact with you?

It's like they're pretending their head was like that before you saw them.

How do you even respond to that?

i have a twin sister who is quite lonely because she's an anxious mess who never goes outside. but she is a very good and nice person and i like talking to her a lot, and i was like her too (always alone, never went outside) before my own boyfriend "saved" me.

my boyfriend's friend one time showed interest in my sister when he learned about her, and since then my bf has said that a few times he has tried to "advertise" my sister to him (this sounds bad but we're all esl, it sounded better originally lol). i have never mentioned any of this to my sis because i am still not sure if the friend was actually serious (for example him saying he likes being alone, which seemed contradictory to his earlier statements about wanting to meet and take my sister on a date). and it'd be really mean to mention a guy to her who wants to date her, for her to get excited, and then for it all to go to shit because he was never actually serious about it. she has also said she wants kids some day so that's why i even entertained the thought at all, because i do know she's lonely and never meets any men irl.

but since then it seems like my boyfriends has kinda stopped talking to his friend for differing opinions essentially. i also only ever knew him through my boyfriend. should i just forget all about this original plan, having the two of them meet ? he seemed like a very good person as well, and well, i'd never let any of my bf's other friends get near my sister lol. but of course his wishy washy i like to be alone comments that he made later did make me feel confused.

so yeah, should i just ignore all of this happened and not mention anything at all to my sister? because it does seem like this plan, if there ever was a plan, did go to shit.

How much money would you take to willingly get infected with cancer?

How do I last longer in bed?

As soon as I put it in her, I cum within 3 minutes.

dad says what bothers him abot my mum and mocks her and criticises her, complains, eh is my dad half my life, and mum is my blood, i've said it btohers me and stuff and I get that im basicall being bitch about it, but yeah he still does it, and mum doesn;t stop doing things or getting in coiflcits or borthering him and that makes it hapepen more and more, been this way for some eyars, he doesn't have anyone else really to say it to and its his way of dealing with whateer appensat the time but I think it affects more than I think, I am a soft person and not a good person insidwe I am a narcissist, but yeah, should I move out or something or what? I know I hsould man up and I didnt let on it bothered me today but really does he respect eiter of us genuienly if he does this? and the other stuff passiva aggressive stuff he does at thome and whatnto.

I feel utterly demoralized. I could tell you my life story but I don't want to bore you, and you may think I have it better than most which I suppose I probably do, but I am full of dread for the future and have no real way of breaking free from my situation. How do I fix things? How do I fix my mindset so I can shoo away these feelings that are borderline crippling?

my name is yukihiro, i have been diagnosed with depression, lately ive been having really bad mental issues, i just want to sleep and never wake up, i just want friends.... im sorry

I want to have sex

So yeah.

I got few days to live and that.

Been thinking about offin myself.

I just want to make it a bit meaningful.
Nothing like shooting up schools, rapin kids or stuff that you guys always do in these types of situations.

The problem just is that I am too old. I wasted my life or at least I did not achieve anything that I should have.

Failed all my relationships. 1 that I kept for over a decade ever since I was young. Lost my child too. My financial future is done for. I got no real profession even.

Think this the end of the line. I do not wish to continue something that is without a purpose and that I hate. I do not feel sad and best of all, not very empty. For first time in a long time. I feel bit happier and that I finally got purpose.

Got any thoughts?

to put a long story short, I injured my penis while masturbating three years ago, and as a result acquired a condition called hard flaccid syndrome; won't link to any articles here, but you can look it up yourself if you're curious, very nightmarish is all I'll say. I'm unemployed, can barely walk or function normally without pain and discomfort, cry several times a day, and due to the rarity of the condition I get no help from doctors; have seen upwards of 40 at this point. I've been in and out of hospitals and psych wards following several unsuccessful suicide attempts and feel like there's absolutely no point in living. my penis is numb, painful, and firm all the time; not erect, mind you, like it's firm when it's in the flaccid state. I've spoken to several people who have my condition these last three years, as we have a little online community. four of individuals I know for certain have taken their lives, and I'm sure there's countless more. I'm just at a loss, and don't know what to do, aside from ending it, but clearly it's much harder than it looks. it's no fucking depressing. the relentless pain and discomfort is one thing, but realizing I'm never going to have a girlfriend or family because of this feels, idk, indescribable. I'm like not even a human.

I'm a mentally ill neet and I spent most of my free time either staring at walls without doing anything or asleep, and it's having a bad effect on me
what are some things (doesn't have to be productive or self-improvement related) I could do instead to pass the time?

>Hate my voice because its too high and not masculine enough
>I’m not smart and I’m not attractive so I have nothing
>Friends with people who are either smart, attractive or both and I compare myself to them especially the ones that are both
>black and coal skinned, not an immigrant just not much euro admixture so I don’t fit the beauty standards here. I don’t want to leave the US
>My hair is fucked as a result. I want chief keef hair as I think he physically meets american black beauty standards (thugmaxxed, good jawline, autistic but chill)
>Hate my personality and think I’m a fucking annoying faggot.

How do I stop being so insecure about this? Sometimes I feel suicidal especially because I can’t be smart or hot so I won’t really be successful

Should I become an alcoholic? I'm a 20 year old loser who's been LDARing since age 13. I was thinking of abusing some substances so I could be a classic miserable alcoholic archetype rather than soberly experiencing my trash boring life. I'll probably walk around in public drinking booze and see what situations I find myself.

I'm around 5'5-5'6, haven't gotten a good measurement but I wear lifts daily and I still want to rope myself after seeing everyone at my height or slightly taller.

I'm 22 and KHHV, I know I'll never get a gf at my height. I've gotten approached by multiple girls every time I've gone out to parties, etc. but I was wearing lifts each time so I doubt they would've even noticed me if I wasn't.

The only thing I have going for me appearance wise is the fact that I'm not a complete subhuman ethnic, I've got pale skin and decent euro features, so I guess that's that. I'm also 14% bodyfat and I have some muscle.

Is my only hope leg lengthening?

Did an IgA anti-transglutaminase test — positive is 20 U/mL or higher, mine was over 1000 U/mL.

Makes sense though. Had mouth ulcers since I was a kid, random diarrhea, stomach pain, fingers that don’t heal right, and lately I can’t focus for shit.

Everything I like has gluten. Pizza, burgers, milanesas, even that weird beer I drink once every blue moon.

Anyone here went through this?
Where do I read real info (not the “gluten-free lifestyle” crap)?

I eventually wanna move outta my mother's apartment and find my own but I have a ton of things I have to do first before I'm even given that chance. I'm 25 in case you ask:
>Get my first job, which I have done as I work part time as a cashier
>Get health insurance, a therapist, and dental which will require a full time job
>Need to work at Target for 1 whole year to be able to get experience on my resume
>Need to get my GED as I dropped outta high school in 2015, 1 month into 9th grade due to mental issues affecting me at the time
>Need to learn to drive
>Need to go to college so I can get a diploma for a job that pays better so I can be able to afford an apartment, insurance, etc
>Need to eventually enter full time which means no more time for hobbies but I have money to be able to live
>Eventually need to get a GF who will become a wife so I'm able to start a family
Will this whole process take me 4 or 5 years?

Anons I require your advice. I've been dating this girl for a couple of months, and she's sweet, cute loving all the things that make a great gf. But I don't love her, even though I do enjoy her company. Earlier today we agreed that I was going to take a week of no contact with her and figure out if I want to continue the relationship.

There's another girl, a friend of mine, who a couple of days ago made some social media posts alluding to having her heart broken by the boy she likes being in a relationship. She ghosted me at the same time and has since been spiraling, talking about taking drugs, etc. I do like this girl a lot, although we were only friends, never dating and my issues with my gf are unrelated to her. What the fuck do I do? I feel like I'm about to lose my gf and my best friend because I don't love one and the other is jealous, or thought I was leading her on. (to be clear, I am interested in a relationship with the second girl, but I'm not a cheater) I would figure out how I feel about my current gf and break things off with her before I dated the other girl.

I think that I am socially retarded and don't know how to navigate this situation and I would prefer to keep both of these people in my life, if only as friends, if that is possible. Thank you for your attention to this matter.

We're been talking since around February, we've had our ups and downs, long talks, short talks, currently on a short talk type of week, maybe couple weeks. I've visited her for a week, and have a two week trip coming up, confessed to her, and still have feelings for her, but I don't believe she has genuine care for me, occasionally she'll message first, but its mostly me, we'll go a week having long discussions and deep talks, and then a couple where she won't respond at all. As much as I care for her, I'm terribly frustrated about her indifference, I feel like cutting her off all together and moving on. While I struggle with this a lot, I will want to try, and be there for her, but what is there to be present for anymore, I feel like im nothing to her

I cannot do anything alone. When there are people around I can study, pay attention, work hard. But the moment I am left alone I laze around, start doomscrolling, doodling, walking aimlessly at home, watch the walls, play games...

I have been theorizing that if I could go full schizo, and get an imaginary friend I could do the stuff I need to do, and fix my life. Is it possible to do as a normal person. If so how can I do it

anything i need to know to pass adhd evaluation and convince my doc to give me meth or otherwise non methy drugs?

Hiii,first of all,i apologise if something i write have nonsense,i dont have much time,and my english is pretty bad, but i relly needed to take this out of my sistem.

I have a very close friend,i appreciate her,i look after her when shes in a bad situacion,but im getting tires of trying to save her from her insecurities.
I dont have any problems whit telling her a fer times that she isnt hated,that she isnt ugly as fuck,that im not going to leave her alone, or even to tell her that im going to cry if she dies (this are many things that she tries to make me repeat).
But at first i thought,"everyone fells insecure sometimes, she just needs someone at her side" but she is saying the same every day,all day!.
"Im ugly,im sure you would like to be with others instead of me!" And?! Yes,im getting tired of you and your apparent insecure being, yeah,ill be there for you if you are alone,but stop putting all your insecurities on top of me!

I tried to tell her that im tired of her,but she just still being like that all the day,someone have a solution for this?